Dear Heart,

Thank  you for beating tonight.

When the lights went out and the thoughts started racing

Emotions swirling around from left to right

Smiles tucked away until the morning

It was just ME

CONFRONTING ALL THE PAST AND CURRENT HURT, PAIN, BETRAYAL, JUDGEMENT, SELF DESTRUCTIVE LIES AND TRUTHS

Thank you for still beating

When I thought it was over

When I wanted to stay in this bed until my body was cold

You still kept beating

When I held my breath and laid in silence

That “lubb-dubb” was STILL putting in the work

It was slowing down

But it was beating against my chest harder and harder

I couldn’t resist it

My heart was LEFT  pounding echos of HOPE

LIFE

LOVE even when it felt like no one was in my corner

As if no one truly loved me the way that I loved them…or better yet myself

As the closest ones to me were pulling the strings of my heart

As if being 2nd option was my greatest victory 

Dear heart,

My spirit breaks every time I hear another story of a loved one being abused….

I get ANGRY…FRUSTRATED….HURT

Oh heart…

In the midst of it all…

You never gave up on me

Even when broken

You gave me hope and enough “pump” to believe that I was WHOLE

MORE THAN ENOUGH

LOVED BY THE ONE THAT CREATED ME

FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE

GENUINE

SINCERE

THOUGHTFUL

SACRIFICING 

Dear heart, 

You are the sweetest gift ever given to me.

When I thought I had no more strength left in me

When I got tired of having to prove that I was a faithful friend

You stuck by my side

And you PUMPED

YOU PUMPED

YOU

PUMPED!

So my dear heart…

as I whisper gently 

and as these tears slowly roll down my face

thank you

Thank you

Thank

YOU

❀️

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