There are parts of me that you cannot see
because those parts don’t come free.
Don’t expect for me to give you my all
When visualizing me in your world is extremely small
You think you could see through me?
Naaah brotha man…not at all
That thing you see
Is pseudo transparency
You talked to me like I was your girl.
Made me feel so good, I did a couple of twirls
But you laid me out
And you played me dirty
I thought you were the one
But instead I “was just a homie.”
So there I was..hurt..feeling lonely
But still there for you
Every time you called me
That little inkling of hope faded away
When you told me you never liked me in that way
In the name of love I felt so used
But in the power of your control you said that I’m the one confused
Where do we go from here?, I asked you.
You ignored the question.
I turned blue.
Seemed like you got me where you wanted me to be.
And the needs of my heart was left like a broken tree.
What the heck did I eventually do?
Well I sucked it all up and became your fool.
Day in and day out
I listened to you
While you were still fake loving me in that unhealed wound.
Why did I let you do this to me?
Is what I asked myself.
Well I thought you loved me
But you “just needed a little help.”
At the end of the day everything was so wrong
I learned to move on and now I’m strong
Sometimes I find myself singing that love song
But I snap out if it
And remind myself that you were the dog.
At the end of this cycle
There was one lesson learned.
That feeling I had for you had to get burned.
Years of friendship was built on a dream to pursue something more
But when you decided that friendship is where it will stay..
That friend…shipped out the door
– Kristal C. (c)